So my birthday was on Sunday, and overall I cannot complain with how things went. I had some me time, bought myself a nice outfit, even decided to put myself together instead of sitting around in my sweats all day (my original plan). Throughout my day, I saw this post on Instagram, and it felt insanely accurate with how I feel like the next year of my life should go:
I often do not take the time to give myself credit for the things that have gone well in my life, or the things that I am proud of the most. Oftentimes, I focus too much on what needs work, what went wrong or how I didn’t do what I needed to do for me. I allow myself to get down and distracted about so much of the negative, that I don’t really look at myself and learn to love and appreciate what is in front of me. I don’t celebrate the things I have accomplished, and I am very critical of myself. Since Sunday I’ve tried to tell myself that those days are behind me. There is absolutely no reason why I should not be happy with my life. I’m appreciated and loved far beyond what I believe to be true. I am great at the things I currently have going for myself and I am confident that whatever goals I set out for myself, I will achieve them because I have the drive and the ability to do so.
This year, I promised myself I would love myself more; and not just say the words but actually embody them. I told myself I would boost myself up, because I’m successful no matter what it looks like to others. I told myself I would count my blessings because I have several. I also told myself that I won’t give anyone or anything more than what they’re giving me; which is very difficult for me to try and manage, but I’ve never been more tired than I am of giving everything I have and receiving nothing in return. I will only do that for those who have exhibited their appreciation towards me. For the others, I have to stop pouring into any person, place or thing that is not pouring back into me. I’ve said it before but I’m going to really try hard to live this way, because as I continue to get older, I realize more and more that I am far nicer than most deserve, and I have to start saving a lot of that for me.
So here’s to me keeping some of that joy for me, and only giving it out to those who also want to keep that same energy.