2019 Reflections

When I first thought of this post, I wanted to discuss all the things that I did not accomplish, that I have been kicking myself for so far this month.  Instead of harping on what I did not accomplish, I took the time to remind myself of the things I did accomplish this year.  These things are possibly minute compared to some of the things I wanted to accomplish; but, what’s important about them is that they helped me mentally or emotionally be in a better place than when I started this year.  So, I narrowed it down to my top three most rewarding accomplishments of the year, and I will explain why they were so important to me.

  • I published 2 books this year!: after an extended hiatus from writing, early 2019 I had the pleasure of publishing two more books. My second collection of poetry, A Soul’s Journey and my pre-quel novel How it Really Went Down, were both published around March and April of this year.  I am very proud of the accomplishment to now have four published books under my belt, and currently working on a fifth (with hopes of publishing early 2020).
  • Said good-bye to a toxic work environment: This was a big decision for me, because it solidified the point where I stopped talking about how to take charge of my mental health, but I actually did something. I never thought I would take a leave of absence from my old job, but it was much needed. I thought I’d be forever committed to the state government of Georgia for a long time.  But I finally gained enough courage to choose myself and I went on extended medical leave with my previous job.  During that time, I thought long and hard about whether or not I could continue to survive going to a job that did not appreciate my efforts, and continue to undermine and make me feel inadequate. My choice was to leave, which leads into my third best thing that happened this year, ☺️.
  • Left what I considered my “safety blanket” and took a huge leap: Part of getting a new job, also meant I was moving to a whole different state!  In June, I accepted a job in North Carolina, which would be the first time (outside of college) I would have moved away from my hometown and family in Georgia.  It was also my first time as an adult living ANYWHERE other than Georgia. It definitely freaked me out at first, and it didn’t really hit me until I was sitting in my new job’s HR orientation that I was officially a fish out of familiar waters; and at first, it felt really weird.   It’s been about six months, and I’m still kind of getting acclimated to my new surroundings.  It’s difficult, and sometimes and still a bit lonely (I definitely miss my friends and family back home); but it’s getting better.  Some things are still a little foreign, but with each passing day, I remember that this is a new experience and opportunity truly live my best life.

If I could sum up the big moments of 2019, these would be it. They were the moments that pushed me forward instead of held me back. I’m proud of the choices I made and the decisions I made to better my health and happiness. If I could do it all over again, I wouldn’t change a thing. I’m satisfied of the things I accomplished this year and my hope is that I accomplish so much more in 2020.

Here’s to a successful and prosperous 2020 myself and everyone else around me.