Boy, did the devil test me this week.

So, I must say, THIS was one of the most trying weeks of my life.  I might call it downright depressing.  I won’t go into gory detail about all the things that have happened, but let’s just say personally and professionally I’ve been tested and broken to my lowest point this week, and I’m surprised I even came out of it with my sanity in tact.

Most people that know me, know that I don’t allow much to get to me.  I can pretty much let a lot of things roll off my back with not so much as a reaction.  This week was a little different.  This week, I just couldn’t take everything that was coming down on me in one week.  Some of it was indirect, but most was direct hits at me and I couldn’t take it.  I lost a little bit of myself this week, the person who is always happy and smiling and willing to find the good and optimistic view of everything.  This week, I was the poster child for pessimism and depression.  Most people think it is easy putting a smile on everyday, but sometimes, it’s the biggest struggle you could be faced with.

The end of the week got a little better though, as I began to change my way of getting over my crappy week.  I mainly began to try and shift my focus on things that I enjoy most; music, the gym, writing and reading.  Those 4 things kept me as sane as possible and helped me not completely break down.  I encourage anyone going through something similar to find 1 or 2 activities that you love to do, that bring you great joy, and use those as your method of self-care.  It will definitely help!

Hopefully, I won’t have another week like this ever…although I know that may not be as realistic as I’d hope it would be. Either way, I definitely learned a better way to deal with my bad days and not allow them to consume me.