Playing with Fire – The Intro

 I never thought I would see the day when I lost everything.  I look back and wonder if it was all worth it. 

It’s a funny feeling when your wrongs catch up to you.  You finally see the error in your ways, and wonder to yourself “Why didn’t I just come clean in the first place?” I never knew that my life would come to this; sitting in my apartment, wondering how my life became such a big pile of crap.  I’ll admit I was wrong, and karma came right in and bit me in the ass.  If I could go back in time about three years ago, I would have never went out that night.  That night is what started all the problems I got into, and ultimately led me to losing the love of my life.  Basically, I should have just stayed my unhappy ass at home, I would have stayed faithful to my husband, and life would have been ten times better than this in the end.  I’d bet all my money on it. 

I have to admit that I was definitely the cause of my marriage ending the way it did.  I was betrayed and played, and it hurt like hell when all the pieces of the puzzle came together.  No matter how much wrong I was doing, I never thought it would have happened like that.  I lost the the love of my life, Trey.  He is now living the life I was living with him with another woman and I can’t do anything but blame myself for my my actions.  I will regret it for the rest of my life.  I can’t put full blame on him, because if it hadn’t been for my wild ass, our lives never would have come to what they did that night at my house.  I did not want to lose him, but once I realized what I had done, I knew there was no turning back.

What led to this travesty you ask?  My cheating ass, that’s what.  I played with fire and got burned.  Men are the main reason why I’m single now!  At this point, it’s just better that I leave them alone completely.  I felt like I could find the solutions to my marital problems was within the company of other men, and I learned the hard way that that was not the case.  I betrayed friendships, my first and only love, brought shame to myself and my family and for what?  A few minutes in bed with another man.  You would think after the tragic ending of one, I would have learned my lesson and calmed down, but unfortunately, I continued to test the waters until it all caught up with me and I lost everything.  Like I said, karma came back and got me, and no matter what I did in the past, I still ended up paying for my mistakes and wallowing in my guilt day in and day out.

So, sit back, relax and let me take you on a journey through the life of Chante Wright……

Copyright © 2015 by Whitney N. Cason.  All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the author.

More coming soon!

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10 thoughts on “Playing with Fire – The Intro”

  1. Reblogged this on HarsH ReaLiTy and commented:
    This is an honest reflection on life, marriage, and personal growth. What a great intro to a book! Hopefully people take the time to give this a read and check out the novel as a whole! -OM
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  2. Uuuhhh, just realized my previous comment MIGHT have been completely misunderstood.

    [Unfortunately this happens too often with me for reasons I STILL do not understand]

    Please know it was meant with heartfelt appreciation and admiration for your bravery and honesty.

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  3. Hi,
    I met you on Jason’s site.
    My dad taught me that we can only do what seems right at the time. You cannot beat yourself up over what seems right to you at the time. Nobody has foresight.
    Nice to meet you.
    Janice

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