I feel like a failure.
I set out to accomplish a goal and I’ve missed out on at least 5-6 weeks of that goal so far. I’ve been so out of the loop of writing that I haven’t posted an essay since week 11(ish)… I kinda feel like crap about it.
I haven’t lost steam, or motivation, or the ideas haven’t run out; I guess you could say my health has somewhat hindered my ability to take out the time to write like I would like to. I’ve been needing more time to rest and meditate for my own health and sanity and I haven’t been able to take time to write.
It sucks when something that is beyond your control, stops you from doing something you love to do; and that’s the most frustrating part. It’s not that I haven’t been able to write as well, I haven’t been myself lately and it’s caused my overall mood and emotions to change drastically. It’s put me in an uneasy place, to say the least. It makes me really upset and I don’t want to live a life that is bound to me being limited to not doing the things I love to do because of my health (this is particularly hard for me, because I’m a person who is practically in perfect health. I never have had any medical issues or any health issues up until now).
Now that I’ve found a resolution and treatment plan for what’s going on, I hope to get myself back on track; which means my content will be back up and running on schedule. I may alter my schedule to posting a couple posts less a week, just so I don’t overwhelm myself (since I’m managing two blogs), and see how that goes.
In the meantime, stay healthy, stay positive, and if you fall off, get back up. It’s not the end of the world.