So, I’ve been away for a little bit; but for good reason. I’ve began a new chapter in life, and what better time than now to celebrate it? 🙂
So possibly the biggest news of the year was that I purchased my first home! I’m very excited and it was a very long, tedious task. It’s definitely not for the weak LOL. All in all, I finally have something to call my own; my place of peace and serenity. It’s still very surreal, but I am loving it.
I never thought in a year’s time, I would be where I am today, starting this new chapter in life. I honestly did not know what would happen, or where I would be. All I knew was I didn’t want to be in the same mental space I was in. Things took a rough turn during the during the pandemic, and as a result, I lost one of the most important aspects of my life; my marriage.
This is the first time I am actually putting that out there for the world to see (and for some, you possibly gathered that conclusion by how my year has gone thus far). It’s hard to be vulnerable enough to say the words, because it still pains me to think about; however, that is now my truth. I have to live with what has transpired in my life, own the pieces that belong to me, and find a way to move forward.
The Transition Chapter
Transitioning and shifting into the current stage of life I am in now has not been easy. I know I made mistakes that I’m not proud of, but I am learning to live with them now. It’s still not easy for me to navigate how I’m going to go forward as a single parent day in and day out. I know millions of women in the world (some of which I know personally), have gone through this and succeeded things far beyond measure. I am not afraid that I won’t be able to achieve what I want out of life; however, the sadness comes from the idea of me now doing them without someone to share in those moments.
When I dreamed of how my life would turn out, I dreamed of having someone there by my side. Maybe God wanted me to see that I can still accomplish everything in my life, with just a 2-man team of my daughter and I. All I know is, I am picking up the pieces day by day, and I’m hoping that whatever is next up for me in this next chapter, I make the absolute most of it.
For now, I will enjoy my life, my daughter, my home. And also, be on the hunt for our next adventure, getting a dog. 🙂
There is a happiness amongst pain and suffering. There is a plan for your life, no matter how much we don’t like the path we are on. Something is always happening that provides perspective to who you are. And maybe this was mine.
So, congratulations to me and my amazing accomplishment.
I will allow myself the time to mourn my loss, but give more time to the things that are yet to come.