I went through some very interesting circumstances this year; some that I’ve never been through before, some even that I have barely been ok enough to talk about. I wasn’t always being 100% for the important people in my life. I wasn’t present for a lot of people I love this year. I wasn’t present for myself. I didn’t set boundaries like I talked about, and I allowed people to take me for granted. I started to question things that I’ve learned, and things I’ve adapted to and wondered if they truly were for me. I was blessed to see another 365 days, and I pray I see another 365 more.
I wanted to make mention of the things that didn’t go quite right for me, in order to set myself up to be more motivated to make sure I don’t repeat the same things. Some of the times I had this past year have been some of the lowest of my life, but my hope is not to dwell on those things; but rather reflect and adjust accordingly so that they don’t happen again.
In 2019, I don’t want to make any big resolutions or anything, but I want to affirm put into the universe that I will truly love me first. When I say love me first, I mean set the boundaries I didn’t set, put the intentions out in the world that will help me evolve. I want to say what I want with strength and weight behind it and don’t make bullshit promises to myself. I want to set a goal, a real one and actually put in the work to achieve it. I want to attain the success I know I’m capable of, and stop acting like good things can’t happen to me.
There are a few things I’d like to step out of the box and try, and I’m making it my mission to do those things in 2019. I’ve realized the only thing stopping me is my own apprehension and doubtful energy. So this year, my goal will be to create the right kind of energy spaces for me to evolve and become my best self, because I know I’m destined for things far better than what they have been, and my only goal is to always stay on the grind to achieve that.
With all this being said, I am hopeful for positive energy. I am aiming for a successful year and meaningful transitions. 2018 is a year that broke me down, but 2019 will be the year I am rebuilt and reborn.
On 8/6/18 , I woke up, got Kynnedy ready, and dropped her off at her first day of Pre-K.
She was full of life and confidence; I, internally, was a mess.
I couldn’t help but stay in constant prayer all the way to the school that morning. I had to make sure that if God heard nothing else from my mouth, he would keep my child safe from harm while at school.
My daughter is now in the public school system. There is a certain shift in energy and a direct desire to be completely overprotective. I believe it is due to the type of work that I do. I receive several calls throughout the school year involving children, and even children being hurt by school personnel. I hope and pray that one day that is not my child, or that I am not in the position to have to report inappropriate actions by a school professional about my child.
I have reflected over the course of the week, and I believe that you’re never prepared to send your child into the public (or private) school system. For a child, it is a rite of passage and a new adventure; for parents, we are full of nerves, joy, apprehension, etc. (or at least that was me lol).
To all of those in my position, who’s child is entering the school system world and all it has to offer, we will get through this. The nerves will subside, the tears will stop, and we will have a successful year!
We are officially six months into 2018. Take a minute and ask yourself these questions:
What have you accomplished thus far that you are proud of?
What have you done thus far that you aren’t so proud of?
How can you make the remaining six months of 2018 just as good, if not better, than the first half of 2018?
With the springtime in full swing, it’s not uncommon for you to get the feeling to want to do.a cleanse of sorts through your life. Some people clean their homes, while others may focus more on their personal lifestyles and determine what needs to be flushed out and what does not. Starting the spring season by getting rid of any toxic of negative relationships is one of the great ways to start the season, and a way to make room for new positive relationships.
If you currently are dealing with someone or several people that do not bring any positive benefits to your life, who constantly bring your mood down, or who don’t mean any good to you or are always negative; it may be time to release them from your life at the inception of this new season. There is no reason to bring that type energy into your Spring and Summer 2018 if you do not have to. It may be time to make a clean break from those who are not in your life with the intention to bring you any joy or happiness. This even includes some of your closest relationships; such as family and significant others.
Oftentimes, we hold on to what we believe are our most important relationships because of their title or their hierarchy in our lives. In all actuality, even some of the closest people to you may only be meant to last in life for a specific period of time before it is time to cleanse yourself of them.
So, before the spring comes in full force, will you be taking a hard look at your relationships and determining who stays and who goes?