Lately I’ve been doing a lot of self-evaluation; an effort in trying to become a better “me”, if you will. I’ve been through some scenarios that have provided the shocking conclusion that my “free time” is never actually “free”.
People spend an unnecessary amount of time trying to figure out what it is they want to do, and then get upset when they do not have the energy and time to do it because they’ve been catering to everything else that does not agree with the concept of free time.
I’m sure there are several occasions when you’ve told yourself you’re going to have a free day, and do things that you truly enjoy, but our productivity mindset is so wired in that we end up doing things that do not align with what our intentions were. Then at the end of it all, you wonder “did I actually even give myself a break?”
I’ve done this far too often; I even did it last night. I intended to do one thing for 5 minutes, and then spend the rest of the time reading. I ended up spending 45 minutes doing work related things, because it would have helped me be more productive the next day. What I really did, is cheated myself out of valuable minutes to myself, doing something I thoroughly enjoy (which is reading a good book).
I guess the million-dollar question for me is: why do we do this to ourselves? Why does society always live in a wave of self-sabotage? The world may never know. What I do know, is that we should begin to take more conscious opportunities to really seize the chance at embracing our free time and not making it about productivity. Life is tough, and you’re allowed to have a few lazy moments here and there. Whenever you have a moment to truly do what you want, or nothing at all; take that chance! You may never know when you’ll get a golden moment like that again.