My Open Mic Experience

On 11/21, I went to the second open mic night held in my hometown.  I posted this post describing my newest quest on the bucket list of life, which was actually performing at an open mic night.  Well, with the support and encouragement from friends and family, I didn’t chicken out, lol! I performed one of the poems I wrote earlier this month.  It was frightening to be on stage, letting people hear what I wrote, constantly wondering how they would react, or would they just sit there looking at me like I was crazy and the worst poet ever (thank God they didn’t)!

If I could give myself a grade, I’d say it was about a C….I was completely nervous, reading off my phone, didn’t make eye contact or barely even move while I said my piece, lol.  The most important part is that I crossed the biggest hurdle, which was actually performing it in the first place!  Now, I am preparing to perform another piece in January.  Being that I will have a little over a month, I am going to try to memorize the piece and possibly be a little more into it, rather than standing awkwardly on stage, not aware of what to do with my hand, and praying I don’t drop my phone from the nerves, LOL!

Clearly, I am my worst critic, but I am very proud of myself for taking that step and actually doing something that I have always wanted to do.  I can only hope that this is just the beginning and who knows, one day I might be the feature for a show (big dreams)!

Here is the video of my poem, titled, Addicted.  Enjoy and please leave any feedback possible! I definitely will be doing this again and want to improve!!

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The Value in Self-Care

Lately I have been really trying to keep up with my level of self-care.   I was having a conversation with a friend, who told me that I really need to try to do more of it (or do it at all because I don’t).  I thought about it and she is right, I don’t really do a lot for myself, and I should definitely start.

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#Year28

Tuesday marked the 28th year the Lord has blessed me with life.  I didn’t do much, aside from the adult obligations (license renewal and registration lol), but I enjoyed the day doing some things that I wanted to do.

I took a lot of time to reflect on the things I want to accomplish in #Year28.  I got a few things in my head:

  • Publish #PWF
  • Continue to work on my writing/poetry/spoken word
  • Read more books
  • Start saving money

So far, I think that’s a healthy list of things to try and accomplish until next November lol. I am also blessed for the things I have accomplished from 27 to 28.  My daughter still has her 10 fingers, toes and her bubbly personality, so I am doing something right.  I got a promotion at my job and have finally felt like I have found my career path.  I have been married for 3 years and I am learning more and more on how to improve myself, so that I can be the best self in my marriage.  I also started writing poetry pretty heavy again this year and wrote a book (still can’t believe this one)!  I think life is dealing me a pretty decent hand and I’m not complaining.  I will admit I have my days, but overall, I continue to pray and let God show me the way I need to go!

I’m raising a glass to #Year28 and claiming that this will be an amazingly blessed and prosperous year for me!

Hall passes?!

So, I have recently seen that Mo’Nique has stated that she has given her man a hall pass, and the floodgates have opened up!

I was listening to Rickey Smiley this morning, while women were calling in giving their 2 cents as where they stand with giving their mate a hall pass.  I heard a bevy of answers:

  1. Hell no!
  2. Yea, but I gotta get to cheat too.
  3. Yea, but he can’t bring anything home.
  4. Yea, but there are certain rules.
  5. (I even heard one woman say her and her husband have been swinging for years, heeeeeey. More power to you, hunty!

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Pray for this World

I have noticed that there are a lot of things going on in the world today. Not to mention, many people are trying hard to make people feel insignificant in what they support and don’t support.  If you support one thing, you are no longer supporting something else and if you are standing for one thing, you are standing against other things. 

Can someone please answer me as to when did it become unacceptable to stand for and support more than one thing? 

I just don’t understand people sometimes….*sigh* 

My Upcoming Leap

So, this may not be a big deal for some, but I will be performing at an open mic night this month….

*pause for reaction*

I’ve never been so nervous in all my days, but I need to take a leap of faith sometime. I’m working on some new poems, and so far I haen’t finished one because I’m not convinced they are perfect lol.  I will work on finishing one this week.

Hooray for leaps into new territory!

I Bought Clothes. Lol

So, I sort of went against my challenge to myself yesterday, but I am glad I did.

I originally told myself that I would not buy myself a stitch of clothing until I lost a substantial amount of weight.  I was all for this, until I realized I have no winter clothes, and a pair of my dress slacks have a hole in an unforgiving place.  Needless to say, I had to make the choice to get a few new things.

Yesterday, I went to the store in hopes of not being completely and utterly depressed by trying on clothes.  Most times, I go into it with a horrible attitude, but I tried to be more positive about it this time.  At the end of the day, I left the mall with 7 new shirts and 3 new pair of pants!  The best part about it, is that the clothes I bought, were about a size smaller than what I usually get!!! I was feeling on cloud 20 million! One of the moments I was particularly proud of was the fact that I could go into a store that I couldn’t wear any pants in a couple months ago, and buy 2 pair of pants out of there yesterday.  I was in total shock and couldn’t believe it, but I was also proud of myself for pushing myself to get this weight off.

A lot of people say I look really good right now, but I feel like I could look better.  I try not to critique myself too hard, because hey; I am looking at myself everyday.  How am I going to see any differences? Everything still looks the same.  I told myself that I wanted to be under 200 by the time the new year comes. It’s not the goal I expected, but I feel it’s attainable. I have to keep trying and hopefully the next time I go shopping, I’ll have dropped another size!!